Part 10
I sighed as I fell back onto my bed, holding the towel tight against my body. Jade was going to be here any minute and I was struggling to think of what to wear. I searched every drawer, even getting to the point of checking my suitcase if I had left anything in there. However, as much as I wanted to deny it, I had nothing to wear for this evening.
As soon as Chloe and I got back to the apartment, we went into full cleaning mode, transforming her well-used living room into somewhere people can actually sit down and watch a film. It was actually the tidiest I had ever seen the place and I think Chloe would have agreed.
I sighed again as I stared up towards the ceiling taking in the sight of the light that sat above my bed.
"Perhaps I should clean in here too?" I asked myself, questioning whether Jade would be in my bedroom tonight at all.
Did I want her in my bed? Or would I prefer to just spend tonight as friends? The young woman didn't show many signs of wanting to extend our relationship, but I could not deny that she was far more comfortable with me than anyone else at the stables, was I overthinking everything? Did she only see me as a good friend? I knew from the moment we first started talking that we had much in common.
I sighed for a third time.
Surely, after everything we had been through, I wasn't overthinking it all and she saw me as more than a friend. After seeing me fall over and over trying my hardest to learn all the dressage techniques she was showing me, after looking after me when she found me naked, when the other ponygirls took my clothes as part of the initiation and even seeing me orgasm over and over when the suit became too much.
No, I refused to believe that she only saw me as a friend, she must have more feelings than that. However, despite the struggling that was happening in my head, it was not helping the situation I had on my hands. I still did not have anything to wear.
"…Chloe?" I asked out loud.
An answer did not come right away, but the sound of footsteps coming down the hallway did and within seconds, she was poking her head through the already open door to my room.
"Yeah?" she asked.
She already looked amazing, we both decided not to make a big deal of the whole thing and we should dress casual for the situation. She had on a low-cut brown cotton shirt with the top four buttons undone to show a soft grey t-shirt underneath, a pair of denim shorts covered the bottom of her body but showed off the long, freshly shaven legs that she planned would grab Lily's attention.
"I have nothing to wear." A fourth sigh escaped my lips.
"Doesn't sound like you have much of an issue then," she smirked.
"Chloe!"
"Hey, all I'm saying is that it would break the ice."
"Do you have anything spare?"
The woman leaned on the doorframe, deep in thought as she looked over the room, spotting all the pieces of clothing that desperately needed a good clean.
Chloe seemed to really come out of her shell since finally getting some alone time with the emerald pony; this is a new side of her that I had never seen before and I was loving it. It was nice to see her so happy after a long time of hiding her feelings.
"Do you have any nice underwear?" she finally asked.
"I think I have a few thongs, haven't worn them in a while though."
"No, that is too much. Anything else?"
"I don't, not ones that need cleaning or have holes in them. I've been meaning to go shopping, but being at the stables takes up so much time."
"Yeah, I get that. Wait here."
She turned and left, leaving me alone in the room. Not that I had moved this entire time since falling onto my bed… maybe I should have a tidy, even if nothing happens between me and Jade; she still might want to sleep here. It wasn't clear if the girls were going home tonight or not, but I must admit, I did like the idea of sleeping next to Jade… cuddling together until the morning.
I caught myself smiling as I continued to stare upwards.
Chloe's feet moved back towards my door, "Here, you can borrow these."
She placed two pieces of clothing on my bed. I was surprised to see that what she chose was so little in comparison to what she was wearing.
"Is this enough?" I asked, picking myself up from the bed.
"Yeah, you don't want to try too hard, but what I chose for you is sexy as well as comfortable looking."
I stood next to my friend as we both looked at the two articles of clothing she placed down. On top was underwear, a lacy pair of red booty shorts, that was extremely see through apart from the vital areas, a beautiful rose pattern covered it in its entirety. Underneath the racy underwear was the exact opposite, an oversized t-shirt that looked like it could fit both me and Chloe inside it. It was black with some unknown band on the front, on the back of the shirt was a bunch of tour dates that had been worn out over the years.
I picked up the shorts, opening it up with both my index fingers before giving my friend a goofy smile.
"Wow, you are full of little secrets," I laughed, "Didn't know you wore underwear like this?"
"I don't wear it often, since being at the stables I decided to venture out a little bit."
"It just doesn't seem like you."
"I tie women up in bondage almost everyday for my job, I think some sexy underwear pales in comparison."
"Fair enough and this?" I picked up the shirt.
"It's an old boyfriend’s."
"I didn't know you dated recently."
"I haven't, that's what I mean, it's very old."
"Would these go well together?"
"Yeah! Of course they would. See the oversized shirt gives you that comfortable, just going to bed look, but the moment you lift your arms up or if someone sees underneath, they'll see the sexy underwear and it will drive them wild"
"I trust your opinion."
"Well… let's see you put it on."
I looked at her with my mouth wide open, "Not with you in here."
"I've seen it all before," she reached down and grabbed the shirt, "You put on the underwear whilst I place the shirt on you."
"I can dress myself."
"I know. Heather, I've seen your bits before, there is nothing to be ashamed of, plus it's not you that I want to see naked tonight."
"…Fine."
I quickly undid the knot on the front of the towel, causing the entire thing to fall down to my knees. I opened the underwear and placed one leg in at a time and as soon as I was finished, Chloe placed the t-shirt over my head and helped my arms through the holes.
"There! See, you look cute" Chloe smiled, adjusted the shirt so one side of my shoulder was sticking out the top.
"I hope so."
"Is the underwear comfortable?"
"Surprisingly, it is."
"Good, you can keep them then, I've never got round to wearing them," she smiled as she started to exit the room.
"What about everything you just said about venturing out a bit?"
"I did venture, I drove to the next town where no one knew me to buy those, hid them in my purse and placed them in a box where they've remained since. It's just not me."
I laughed, "Chloe, just when I thought you were becoming cool."
The sun had settled for the day, filling the sky with a dark blue hue as the already orange clouds began to darken. As me and Chloe sat in her living room, I didn't realise how anti-social we were as we sat in silence, waiting for the doorbell to ring. Not even the TV was on as we were too anxious to do anything else but wait for our friends to come over.
"I'm sorry… for earlier." The silence was broken with Chloe's voice.
I looked at her with a confused expression, "What are you sorry about?"
"About driving past your old place, I should have remembered."
"Oh, don't worry about it. Honestly, I didn't realise where we were until we started to pass it."
"Did… did you want to talk about it?"
"No, thank you. I don't think there is anything to talk about anymore, the past is in the past."
"Okay… good."
"Did… did she say where she was going? My Mother?"
Chloe sighed and looked directly at me, "No, I would have told you if I knew, it was a few years ago."
"Thank you."
"Would you want to know?"
"Know what?"
"Where she went. Would you have wanted to know where she was now?"
"I dunno… maybe" I crossed my arms, completely unsure of what I wanted.
Being honest, I did not think about my Mother that much, since coming here, she had only come to mind once… maybe twice. I felt that everything else came first, my life here, the stables, the other ponygirls, Chloe… Jade. They all took priority over my thoughts about her.
That's when I realised the room returned to being quiet. Chloe stood on the other end of the room, taking in the situation as well.
Once the sound of the doorbell rang, we continued to sit in silence, this time staring at each other with wide mouths as we were unsure on what to do next.
I had to remind myself that it was only people from work who would have been at the door, people we had seen everyday of our lives since we both started at the stables, with the only difference being this was the first time we met them for a social call, this was also the first time Chloe and Lily had a proper conversation together.
The moment I jumped up, Chloe did the same as we both raced towards the door. Chloe got to it first, wasting no time to let our visitor into our home. I stayed to watch over her shoulder, trying my best not to look too needy or intrigued in who was standing outside.
"Hey," Chloe almost shouted.
It was Lily, looking much more shy than I remembered her looking when I saw her in her civilian clothing before. She stood in a certain way that her legs bent inwards, causing her feet to face each other. She had on a simple white hoodie with a pair of jeans. In her hand was a box of chocolates, already being handed towards my roommate, she adjusted her glasses as she did this.
"Here, these are for you," The awkward visitor said quietly.
I watched the interaction between them both, it was almost as if what went on earlier never happened. Chloe told me that she pulled Lily into the stable and they both kissed passionately, now it looked like they were just meeting each other for the first time.
It seemed that Chloe did not mind this, she thanked Lily for the chocolates before pulling her in for a hug.
"Hi."
A voice came from behind Lily, which meant it wasn't Chloe… but it did not sound like Jade's. It was a voice that was very unfamiliar to me, with an accent that told me she wasn't originally from around here.
The two girls in front of me finally finished with their hug and stopped touching each other, giving a gap between them to show who else was at the door.
It was Kathia.
The plump, purple pony stood awkwardly behind Lily, with her hands in her leather jacket. I didn't know about the other girls, but this was the first time I had seen the purple girl out of her outfit, or away from the stables. Just like the rest of them, I had the strange sensation that I had spent a lot of loving time with her, the amount of times she cuddled up to me, she was even one of the first ponygirls I had seen when I started at Harriet's, but here she was, the human half of her was right in front of me; a stranger.
"Hi," I said.
"Hey, Hi, Kathia!" Chloe seemed surprised too, but happy to see her, this could not have been the first time the girls have spoken.
It was almost as if she was the opposite of her pony persona, the Kathia I knew wouldn't have wasted a second before giving everyone one of the biggest hugs she could muster, maybe she wanted to but was hesitant, as these were normal people in front of her and not the ponies she knew all too well. Being a pony, you understand why people want to touch you and feel the latex against their bodies, you feel more cute and cuddly and it seems that anything is possible.
I'm sure she would get more comfortable as the day went by, still… I was confused as to why she was here, I assumed only Lily and Jade were invited tonight.
"Oh… Jade is just parking up," she muttered, finally taking one of her hands out of her pocket to point behind.
"Okay, that's good. Come on in," Chloe replied, moving away from the door to allow the two guests to enter.
Underneath Kathia's jacket was a tight shirt and leggings that hugged her figure. Despite being the largest girl in the stables, I couldn't help but admire her body. Her breasts were easily the largest out of everyone's and her butt always caught my eye. That, with her cuddly nature, it was very understandable how she was one of the customers favourites, very close behind Lily.
As she got past the doorway, I wrapped her in my arms. It wasn't something I intended to do, it was just a natural reflex. It might have been a reaction to seeing her be so quiet, thinking about all the times she cuddled me in the past, however, the moment I started to do it; I thought it might have been the wrong idea.
In response, she stood still for a moment, probably shocked due to my action, but when I felt her arms grab me tightly in return, I knew it was the same Kathia; in and out of the suit.
I couldn't help but smile. It was just so nice to see a connection between the pony that I knew so well and the stranger in front of me.
"Hey" Another voice came from the outside world, "Am I interrupting something?.
This time, it was a voice that I knew well. The word she spoke hit my ears like a tune being played. I opened my eyes to see Jade was standing right behind Kathia, standing in a similar pose as she was, with her hands in her jacket pockets, awaiting a response from me.
I noticed the two girls were dressed rather similar, both in dark colours and wearing leather jackets The only two things that were different was the lower end of their outfits, where Kathia wore dark navy blue, skin tight leggings, Jade wore black denim jeans, which ended in a pair of boots, Kathia was wearing running shoes.
This was when I noticed how underdressed I was compared to the four women around me. All were fully outfitted and I was in a long t-shirt with a pair of nearly see-through underwear underneath.
"Welcome!" I stuttered, finally letting go of Kathia and allowing Jade into the building.
"Hey, Jade," Chloe waved at her from the living room, "make yourself at home."
"Perfect."
I sat awkwardly on the sofa. Jade and Kathia got comfortable on the floor, sitting in front of the TV with Chloe and Lily behind them on the other sofa. It seemed the two girls had gotten over their awkwardness and now were lying next to each other, both completely invested in the film, although I noticed Chloe glancing at Lily's lips from time to time.
The first film was Jade's pick, a horror slasher film. Despite it being an interesting story and keeping the attention of all the girls in the room, I couldn't get invested. My eyes were constantly being drawn to the girl in the dark clothes in front of me, wondering why she didn't take the empty spot next to me on the sofa and contemplating whether I should join her on the floor.
I jumped up, grabbing the attention of all the girls in the room.
"I'm just going to get a drink" I said out of awkwardness, "Does anyone else want one?"
I stared at myself through the window in the kitchen, the dark world outside allowed me to see myself clearly, almost like looking in a mirror. As I took the view of myself, I began to think about what the important things to me were. Clearly, the stables, the ponies and my friends had taken over my thoughts, even hitting my own mother out of my mind. Working at the stables was not a permanent thing, I knew that it would all come to an end one day. If not by my own hands, then my time itself, who would want to cuddle up to a fifty-something year-old woman in a latex outfit. It was what happened during this time that meant the most to me, the people who made getting up everyday worth it, the people who are permanently etched in my heart.
One of those people was in the other room - Jade.
I could not describe how I felt for her. It was like an emotion that was still developing, it needed time to understand what was going on, but I knew I wanted her in my life, in and out of the stables, I needed her now and for whatever the future would bring.
I stared at myself through the window in the kitchen, I nodded as my reflection nodded back. I knew I had to do something tonight.
I returned to the living room with the drink in my hand. Everything was as I left it, but Kathia had moved from the floor to the sofa I had occupied, lying across it with her jacket covering half of her body, leaving the space next to Jade completely free.
"Oh, sorry, Heather," she said, "Would you like to sit back down?"
"No, it's okay," I tried to hide my smile as I took the place next to Jade, feeling my heart flutter as we sat shoulder to shoulder.
I noticed both Chloe and Lily were closer than they were before, now snuggling up to each other rather than just lying side-by-side.
The film on TV was actually getting rather boring for my taste, the characters were running through the forest, being chased by the murderer and I was only focused on the woman next to me, how she sat, how slowly she was breathing. It was addictive in a way, just seeing her being who she was; I could watch it all day.
"Pretty boring, isn't it?" she whispered.
I had my eyes on her for so long I didn't even notice at first that she had spoken. I suddenly realised I had stopped breathing, blinking and was just admiring her. I had to force myself to stop and look forward, back to the TV screen.
"I'm glad I'm not the only one" I chuckled.
"So, that outfit. Who's idea was that?"
"What do you mean?"
"Doesn't seem like something you would wear, I wouldn't have even thought you were into that band."
"Yeah… I like them." I did not know why I was defending the t-shirt, it was just something to wear.
"Yeah? Have you watched them live?"
"Of course, I have. I saw them a few years ago… like two or three years ago."
Jade smirked, "They've been disbanded for over a decade."
My eyes widened, I knew Jade received some sort of joy in being right, in putting me into this situation, "Okay, it was just an old shirt of Chloe's."
Jade continued the smirk, but kept quiet. We both continued watching the awful film on the screen, even though the interaction with Jade had caused my mind to go into overdrive, I felt as if I had to keep on my feet around her.
I could see in the corner of my eye that her smirk grew wider, "Dare I ask what you have underneath that shirt? Have you got underwear on? Or have you braved going commando?"
My eyes shot open as my cheeks started burning from the embarrassment, "Underwear, of course"
"Do you mind if I take a look?"
I could not tell if she was joking, flirting or trying her best to make me uncomfortable, but it was clear she was enjoying it, whatever it was.
"Uhh, sure."
I quickly looked around at the other girls as Jade lifted the bottom of the shirt, Kathia was too invested in the film to notice and Lily and Chloe were too invested in each other, the two were staring directly in each other's eyes and they would most likely start kissing within seconds.
The young woman next to me chuckled, "Red… very cute."
"What about you? Wearing anything underneath your jeans?" I decided to play her at her own game.
"Nope, nothing."
"Oh…"
"Didn't see the point of putting it back on after getting out of that pony outfit earlier."
"C-Can I see?"
Her smirk continued, she leaned back with her legs wide open, maintaining eye contact with me the whole time, "Sure, knock yourself out."
She wasn't backing down, it felt as if she knew exactly what I was going to ask and how I was going to react. She placed both of her arms on the ground behind her and leant back, allowing a small gap to open between the bottom of her stomach and the opening of the jeans, just enough room to get my hand in.
When a few seconds went by without me doing anything apart from staring at her lower body, she gently took my hand in hers and placed it just above where her jeans rested on her, with my fingertips going between her soft skin and the denim that covered her.
She continued her whisper, "Here, I'll help."
Effortlessly, she guided my hand downward, I could feel the tips of my fingers grazing against her body, travelling further and further downward. Her facial expression never changed, that constant grin stared right into my soul as her tongue gently licked the top of her lip.
My breathing went heavier as I realised how far down my fingers now were, another second of movement would mean I was touching her directly on her sex. I couldn't feel any hair, which told me she shaved and must have done it recently.
"It's… right here" Her voice was even more quiet than before.
"PoPcOrN!" I stuttered as I lifted my hand out of her clothes and jumped up onto my two feet, "POPCORN!"
All the girls in the room looked at me with a funny look, Jade's smiling gaze continued for a moment before finally vanishing as she took her attention to the screen in front of her.
"Popcorn," I said again, "I'm going to make some… does anyone want any?"
All the girls murmured, almost immediately Lily and Chloe went back to cuddling each other. Kathia expressed interest in having some and Jade just ignored me, as she continued to watch the terrible film in front of her.
"Oh, dammit!" I yelled quietly at myself as I entered the kitchen once more.
I fucked up, I got that. My nerves got the better of me and I did not know how Jade would react now. My hands hit the kitchen counter and I contemplated slamming my head into it too. Now, no matter what, it was going to be awkward when I sat back down.
I placed a bag of popcorn in the microwave before returning to look at myself in the reflection of the window. I questioned whether I was who I thought I was, I thought I cared enough for Jade to put her first, to put all thoughts behind me, so why was I having a hard time being this close to her. Just a moment ago, I had her hand on mine as I was about to touch the most sensitive part of her body and I panicked. Was I ready for such a big step? Was the fact she was a woman scared me too?
"You okay?" a voice came from behind me.
I almost got whiplash from how quickly I turned my head around to see the young woman I had been spending the evening with walk into the room. My nerves were on high alert and I could feel the numbness enter my legs, I was seeing the kitchen as a safe place for the evening, a place to hide away and dissolve myself in my thoughts, but she had forced herself into my safe place, forcing me to confront my feelings and my issues head on.
"Is everything okay?” she asked a similar question to the one she had asked earlier.
I gritted my teeth, "Yeah… Yeah, why shouldn't it be?"
At this point, she didn't stop walking. She had made it across the room and was still heading in my direction as we had this mini conversation. My brain struggled to think as she was forcing me to be social despite the struggles I was having with her company. All thoughts stopped as she got within a few feet of me, I didn't know what to do or say and I was probably staring at her with my mouth wide open the whole time; looking like a complete fool.
She placed her hands gently over the top of my arms as the smell of her perfume hit my nose, a scent that I had smelled numerous times before, but now it felt so fresh and new to my senses. It was as if a new woman was in front of me and the smell reminded me of the Jade I knew, quiet, antisocial. The question remained whether I enjoyed this side of the dark haired girl, if my brain had been functioning properly, maybe I could have asked myself that very question.
"Relax, Heather," her smile melted my heart, "I'm not going to have sex with you today."
"Huh? We… what?" Was all that I could get out, "What do you mean?"
"I'm not ready and I can tell you aren't too." The words she was saying were a window into her feelings, something that traditionally showed a level of weakness and sensitivity, but she was saying these words with the utmost confidence, "I know it's weird, I've never had feelings for another girl before, I was going to put them aside and put it down to you being a good friend to me… but I can tell you have the same feelings."
I tried to speak, but nothing came out apart from complete gibberish, "I… uh, yeah."
It was the strangest feeling, everything that I had imagined was coming true, she was in front of me, only inches away from my head, confessing that she felt the same way I did. She wanted to explore these feelings but wasn't ready yet, exactly the same as I felt.
In a way, it made me want her even more, with her being so open, so charming. My knees continued to get weaker and weaker as a whole new feeling came over me, it wasn't just love or sexual desire anymore, it was having that deep connection with someone and being completely at the same stage.
"I'm not sure about you, but that film in there is completely boring."
A laugh came out from me as what she said grounded me back into reality, "Yeah, it really is."
"How about you give me the full tour of Chloe's apartment? I've seen the living room and the kitchen, how about you show me where I'll be sleeping tonight?"
"I… uh…" These stupid words won't come out, "Are… you staying tonight?"
"Don't you want me to stay?"
"Yeah… Yes, of course I do" I cleared my throat, "Do you mind staying in my room?"
"Well, I'm not a fan of sleeping on a sofa."
"Okay… you can stay in my room" I cleared my throat again before saying this next part, "But I only have a single bed."
"That sounds cosy." She was almost licking her lips at the idea.
My brain internally screamed, "O-Okay! Come with me then!"
I began to walk out of the room towards the hall, trying my best to not allow my knees to buckle at any point. Jade followed me, placing her hand in mine as we exited the kitchen. As we walked through the living room, I noticed Chloe and Lily were too preoccupied with each other as Kathia's attention remained fixated on the TV, the sound of the two girls kissing was almost as loud as the film was.
For a moment, I swore I could see Kathia wink at me as I closed the door to the living room, leaving me alone in the hallway with Jade connected to me by my hand. It was like we had shut the world away, the door almost blocked out all the noise to the room, leaving me and her in complete silence and darkness. I noticed Jade's hand began to squeeze mine a little tighter than before.
I led the way down the short hall towards one of the three doors, one led to the bathroom, whilst the other doors accessed mine and Chloe's bedrooms. Even though my body was numb as I pushed through the door to my room, my brain was still going a hundred miles an hour. So far, I had done this many times before, but this was the first time I was being followed by a girl other than Chloe, this was someone I daydreamed about taking to bed and now it was happening in real life.
I clicked the light switch on and my room was illuminated in a split second, showing the bed, a small TV and all the other things I called my possessions. It was always a sad sight to behold, but it was something I didn't care too much about. I hardly spent any time here, my bedroom was for sleeping and for getting dressed, Chloe had made her entire apartment my home and I was more than happy to spend my free time in the living room.
"Very cosy," Jade said as she finally let go of my hand and began to wonder within the room.
I couldn't take my eyes away from the bed, even though Jade stated she was not interested in having sex with me; my mind wondered about what would happen underneath those sheets tonight? What would happen within these four walls?
Jade could easily change her mind about what she wants to do and I would be in no place to say otherwise, I didn't know what I wanted at that moment and relied on Jade to take the lead. The only guarantee was that our relationship would have changed by the time the sun rose once more, by the time we go back to work in the morning, things would not be the same.
My eyes never left her as she sat down on the edge of my bed. The moment her body made contact with the top of my sheets my brain mentally screamed; it was one thing seeing her enter my room, it was another thing seeing her where I actually slept. She continued looking around the room as she got comfortable.
"Are you going to join me?" she smiled at me, "Or are you going to enjoy the view from the door?"
"Y-yeah… yeah!" I stammered, the sound of nervousness still apparent in my voice.
I walked towards her step by step, almost walking like a toddler. I was so aware of every movement that I was making towards the poor girl that I was almost overcompensating for every action I made.
The steps finally stopped the moment I was right in front of the dark haired girl, my bare knees were touching hers, making me aware of how little I was wearing compared to the stranger in my room. I wanted to do something… I needed to do something, all I was doing was standing directly in front of her, doing nothing but keeping eye contact. She must have been thinking I was brain dead.
"Hi" Was all that I managed to muster up.
It was a quiet, emotion-filled word that came out of my mouth. I hoped she saw it as a sexual, intimate word instead of the basic and barebones way I saw it. Why was my body fighting it? I've been intimate with people before and had no problems, yet… It was a completely different story with Jade.
It was the way she looked at me, it was completely different to the way she had looked the many times we've met before. She was looking at me as if I were a meal, as if I was exactly what she wanted and needed at that moment in time. The way her eyes gently looked down at my bare legs, the way her teeth were gingerly biting her lips.
"Do you think we can lose this?" she asked, her voice was barely a whisper as she reached for the bottom of my shirt.
My brain instinctively told me to follow her every instruction, before I had the time to process what she was doing, I was holding my arms up in the air and allowing her to pull the old, baggy t-shirt from my frame. Leaving me completely naked in her presence, the only thing covering me was the lacy underwear Chloe had given me earlier.
She chuckled to herself, staring down at the red material around my waist and throwing the shirt onto the floor.
"Red underwear, I like it." Her voice was almost humming.
I had the urge to cover myself, it was an odd feeling as she had seen my naked body before, she had also seen me wear bondage and I've even orgasmed in front of her in the past. Why, now, did I have the urge to cover my body? Maybe it was because she wasn't the same Jade, it wasn't the Jade that looked after the stables and ponygirls, this was Jade the girl I had a crush on, sitting on my bed whilst I was mostly naked.
As my mind was in conflict, she kicked off her shoes and threw her jacket on the ground. She lifted up the covers and made herself comfortable underneath them, leaving the blanket open for me to get in. She left one arm up, inviting me in to cuddle with her. Her movements were slow, almost deliberately, but my mind was processing everything so quickly, before I knew it she was inviting me to bed with her.
"Come on in, I'm getting cold" Her voice was like caramel on my ears, exactly what I wanted to hear in a soothing, sexual tone.
"Aren't you going to take off your clothes too?" I asked, trying my hardest not to cover my exposed nipples.
"Nope."
She said it like it was an achievement that I was the one almost naked and she wasn't. Like she was gloating about what she managed to do whilst my mind wrestled with its thoughts, if she wanted to, she could have easily gotten me out of the underwear as well without a moment of hesitation. However, I think she was telling the truth about not wanting sex tonight, she just wanted to cuddle up to each other for the rest of the night.
I breathed in and out slowly one last time. I had to remove the need to think about what I was doing and just focus on the event that was unfolding in front of me. I would have to wait for the answers as to why she wanted me naked and just enjoy her being in my bed. My body crawled in after her as she enveloped me in the comfort of the blanket, she guided my body towards her chest, placing my head comfortably against her breast.
A grin came across my face, it was nice just to put all thoughts away. She moved herself into a more comfortable position and held my body within her arms. The soft, slow sound of her heart beating against my ear made me even more at ease, a complete contrast to the quick beats that were happening in my chest. I wanted to savour every moment of this, however I found myself slowly drifting off within her arms.
"Heather? Heather?" I heard Jade's voice bring me from my deep sleep.
It sounded like she wasn't fully awake herself as she gently rocked me from side-to-side whilst I was still on top of her, bringing me back to reality without being too harsh. Even though my brain was slowly coming to, my eyes took a moment to open, it was the first time since being here that I had slept this well, my body was struggling with the idea of returning back to normal life. Jade's chest had made a perfect pillow, it must have been good as I did not move an inch for the entire night. By the time my eyelids had finally opened, I could tell it was morning, my bedroom was illuminated by the brightening sky; yet it was not late enough for the sun to start rising.
"Uh, what? What's the matter?" I asked, wiping my mouth as I realised I had been drooling on her.
"Your phone's ringing," she cleared her throat.
My eyes glanced over Jade, she was also trying her hardest to remain asleep, she still had her arm around me but her free arm covered her eyes as she tried to block out the morning light.
"My mobile?" I asked, struggling to look over my shoulder at my device on the bedside table.
"No, I think it's the house phone."
I murmured quietly, grumbling softly to myself as I desperately did not want to move. Finally, after taking the blanket off my still bare body, I could finally hear the ringing of the telephone coming from the hall. The phone was located just inside the apartment, right behind the main door, which meant my bedroom was closest to it.
Strange, I don't think I had ever heard it ring the entire time I had lived with Chloe.
I pulled the phone off the wall, "Hello?" I asked, my voice crackled into the receiver.
"Heather? Is that you? Is Chloe there?" A voice asked through the speaker.
"Yeah, yeah… who is this?"
The moment I asked, the sound of the lady's voice was put in my head, it was Beth.
"It's Beth," she clarified, "Please can you get Chloe? It's a bit of an emergency"
"Sure… Sure," I continued to mumble.
I carried the wireless phone into the living room, that was the last place I had seen Chloe that night and the first thought I had was that she might have still been in there.
As I opened the door, I was greeted with the sight of Kathia lying on the sofa, a thin blanket covering the bottom of her body. She was completely out of it as the television was still on from the night before, showing an early morning program that did not interest me at all.
I closed the door and walked back down the hallway, the only other place she could have been was in her bedroom. I knocked gently before letting myself in, I should have been more polite but my brain hadn't begun functioning correctly at that point. I walked all the way to the bed, noticing that both her and Lily were cuddling each other whilst completely unconscious, I could tell they were both completely naked under the blanket, with Lily spooning my best friend.
"Chloe… Chloe," I muttered, gently rubbing her shoulder as I placed the phone in her hand.
The feeling of the bed felt too great and I found myself face-planting the comfortable mattress the moment she was awake enough to take the device away from me.
As soon as my head touched the mattress, I was almost ready to return back to the realm of sleep.
"What is it?" she grumbled.
"It's Beth, she needs to talk to you," I replied, rubbing my cheek into the soft texture.
She grumbled again, placing the phone right next to her ear, "Hello?"
Lily mumbled quietly whilst hugging onto Chloe tightly, obviously being roused by the small amount of commotion in the room. I didn't want to disturb her, I didn't want to disturb Chloe, it was pleasant that all the girls were comfortable in the realm of sleep, but a part of my brain understood that Beth would not have called if it wasn't a serious situation, however at the time I did not connect the reason why it was a serious situation.
"Oh my god!" Chloe yelped, forcing herself into a sitting up position and causing Lily to fall off her, "Is she okay?"
I always hated hospitals.
Although, I had no particular reason to hate them. It was the labyrinth-like design of the hallways, easily allowing any visitor to easily get lost. It was the smell of cleanliness, the faint hint of chlorine and other cleaning chemicals to keep the floors and surfaces sanitised. It was the people, never did you see anyone happy within the hospital walls, none of the visitors wanted to be there and the doctors and nurses always seemed so busy and overworked.
Kathia would not let go of my hand as we had entered the building. Jade, Chloe and Lily all ran as fast as they could, looking at every sign for an indication of where to go, all I had to do was follow them and keep Kathia close to me.
The three girls finally stopped as we seemingly entered a different part of the hospital.
Chloe ran up to the receptionist behind a large, empty counter as Kathia finally took the reins and walked me to a waiting area, keeping our hands locked together.
"Do you think she's okay?" I asked the plump girl.
"I hope she is," Kathia's mood settled, almost as if finding somewhere to sit was her main priority and now that it was done, her brain could think.
I took a moment to look around the almost empty waiting room, a small selection of the people waiting were roused by the sudden appearance of five young women barging into the area. I tried my best to avoid eye contact with some of them. Two more women entered the waiting area, my first thought was of how crowded the small room would get, but then I noticed who it was that entered.
Saffron and Abigail.
The two tall women broke into the room exactly the same way as we did before, they both ran directly to the receptionist before realising that Chloe, Lily and Jade were already there. I could not hear what was being said between the group of ladies, but it seemed that the receptionist was reluctant to let us in, probably due to the size of the group and the commotion we were making.
Abigail wrapped her arms around Chloe as Saffron stood back, she glanced over the small room before clocking Kathia and I, hands still locked together. The ebony-skinned woman gave me a short wave, one that I returned with my free hand.
Shortly after, Saffron did her best to calm the girls down, Jade looking ready to scream at the lady behind the desk. The tall woman guided each girl towards the chairs in the waiting room. Jade huffed as she took a seat right next to me, Chloe and Lily sat next to her in a similar manner; as if the girls had been told off in some way. Abigail took another seat opposite us, but Saffron decided to remain standing, despite the fact she took control of the situation; it was clear she was nervous about the situation as much as everyone else was.
"I'm okay… I'm fine, you all did not have to come," Harriet stated.
We all waited for thirty minutes before Beth came round to talk to us, now all of the ponygirls, Jade, Chloe, Beth, the stable owner and I all occupied the small hospital room that she had spent the night in.
To our surprise, even Nicole was here. The short, blonde haired girl was sat by Harriet's bed, holding one of her hands in hers.
Even though she was clearly trying to calm us all down, we could see that she was still suffering and it wasn't a pleasant sight to see.
While Nicole was holding one of Harriet's hands, the other arm was placed into a sling.
"I feel like a complete idiot, sorry for making you all worry" The stable owner continued.
It was hard not to feel sorry for her, Harriet was a wonderful woman who had a larger than life personality, seeing her in the hospital bed made her look so weak, so feeble and older than I always thought she looked.
It was a real moment. The entire time at the stables, I felt as if I was living in an unreal world spending almost everyday being locked in a latex outfit, spending my days with some of the most beautiful and lovable people I had ever met, but now it felt grounded, the stable owner was showing her weaker side, the girls were all in different states of worry. No one even batted an eye at seeing Nicole for the first time in ages.
"What happened?" Chloe asked.
"I, uh… I fell off my bed in the middle of the night and knocked my shoulder on the bedside table," the older woman looked embarrassed, "I guess I should have looked where I was going."
Beth took the other side of the stable owner, trying to comfort her with her touch whilst avoiding the area that had been covered up. However, I noticed Beth looked away from everyone when Harriet told them about how the accident happened.
"Ah… I see," it clicked in Chloe's mind the exact same as mine.
"I don't get it, how does someone fall off the bed?" Kathia asked, "I just-"
The moment Kathia continued to talk, Jade gently jabbed her in the arm.
"What?" she continued, "I just don't see… Oh!"
Her eyes widened as her brain put everything together. The room went completely silent, no one made eye contact, the idea of Harriet's accident being caused by Beth and her having aggressive sex during the night, enough for Harriet to fall off the bed and damage her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, everyone," Harriet repeated herself, "I really did not mean to make everyone worry."
"As long as you are okay, that's the main thing," I said.
"Yeah, I will be. They just need to give me an x-ray, but it looks like I'm going to be here a bit longer."
"I'll stay here the whole time with you," Beth calmly said, placing her hand on her leg.
"I'll be fine, I need someone to open up and look after the girls until I get back."
"Well, it will have to be someone else as I'll be here by your side until we leave."
"Fine, fine." She looked up towards the group of women standing in front of her, "Jade? Do you think you can take care of things today?"
In unison, all of us stared at the dark haired girl, it was as if a spotlight was shining directly on her. Her eyes widened, clearly shocked by the question that was asked of her. I knew from the conversations me and her had before, she wouldn't have been surprised if Chloe was asked to take charge for the day.
"Umm… yeah, sure," she finally said, her shocked face turned into a smile.
"Perfect. Thank you."
Harriet took her time, looking at every single person in the room. It was clear that the older woman was emotional, the accident must have made her rethink things.
"Harriet?" Beth asked, "You okay?"
She took her time to answer, slowly she began to smile, it continued to grow until it reached her cheeks.
Beth asked again, "Harriet?"
"Everyone is here," she grinned, as a selection of tears began to form under her eyes.
What she said was quiet, but no one needed to ask her to repeat herself. We all looked around and what she stated was true, for the first time in ages, everyone connected to the stables were in one room. The ponygirls, Me, Lily, Kathia, Saffron, Abigail and Nicole. The owners, Harriet and Beth and the workers, Jade and Chloe.
Harriet continued to look around, "You girls are my family, I want you all to know that."
Beth squeezed her leg tight, "We know, it's why all the girls came to see you today, they care."
Harriet continued to look between us all, trying her hardest not to succumb to her tears, "Umm… Nicole is coming back to the stables soon, however, she will now be a pet instead of a pony. I hope that is okay with you all?"
The stable owner put her head down, trying to cover the tears that had begun to crawl down her cheek. The short, blonde girl next to her looked at the crowd, giving a small wave to them as they were all processing the information they were just given.
Chloe had already told me about Nicole's plan, promising that we both kept it a secret until she was ready to come out. However, I could tell Nicole assumed the group would have been told in a more grander way than this, probably being shown what the pet looked like in her outfit instead of just being told over the hospital bed. Despite that, we understood that this was an emotional time for the stable owner and Nicole seemed pleased that her secret was not out in the open.
"A pet?" Kathia grinned as she asked, "Like being on all fours and having little paws?"
"Yes," Nicole replied, her voice rather quiet in comparison to the plump girl.
"Little ears, nose and whiskers?" Abigail contributed.
"Yes."
"That would be really cute," I smiled.
"Thank you," The blonde girl's cheeks began to blush a bright red.
"Cannot wait to see you in that outfit," Saffron's voice boomed from behind all the girls, "I bet you look really fetching."
"Thank you," Nicole repeated herself.
"I'm sure the clients would love a new animal at the stables" Lily squirmed, as if imagining the small girl in her pet outfit, "You are going to become super popular with them."
"Thanks, that means a lot."
Abigail walked out of the crowd and towards Nicole, "Oh come here, girl!"
Nicole squeaked as the tall woman wrapped her arms around her and hugged her as tight as she could.
"I missed you so much," the tall girl continued, "It feels like ages since we last saw you."
"I'm sorry," the smaller girl replied.
"Awww, come here."
Abigail broke away from the group, almost launching herself towards the fragile girl and placing her long arms around her. Nicole not only welcomed the hug, but seemed almost desperate to receive it. This had been the first time in a long time since we had all seen each other face to face.
Afterwards it seemed as if everyone was working off the same brain, all the girls joined in the hug, everyone wrapping their arms around each other with Nicole right in the middle of us. Even Beth joined in, placing one arm around the group and the other touching Harriet's good arm, as if it connected her spirit to the rest of ours.
I was not ashamed to admit that I was drawn in with the group hug, it felt like we were all complete at last, everyone that belonged in the stables was in that room, having that one moment together.
Last night, Chloe mentioned that family is what you make of it. You might not realise who your family are until they are right in front of you, just because my mother birthed me, does not make her my mother. Real family is the ones who care for you, the people you see everyday, the people who would put your life first before theirs. Chloe told me that despite not being biologically related to any of the other ponygirls, or Beth and Harriet, we were more of a family than the ones I already had… years ago.
It took a while for me to notice it, but I was finally understanding what she meant by those words. As I looked around the room, I did not see my colleagues, my boss or even my roommate, I saw people that I cared deeply for, people I was excited to see everyday, people that I would die for.
This was my family and I would never want to be anywhere else.
The stables were eerily quiet, it was just me and Jade at the property. Beth and Harriet remained at the hospital and the others were just saying their goodbyes and were close behind us. I had only seen the stables this quiet once before and that was when me and Lily spent the night here, as the morning after we had early clients and it was just easier sleeping in one of the stables. Despite seeing it before, it wasn't a sight I would ever get used to. The square was always the busiest part of the business, usually inhabiting a selection of ponygirls or some very eager clients.
I followed Jade into the storage room where the pony outfits and accessories were located, she scanned the shelves for my outfit in particular before heaving the large crate off them and placing it onto the concrete floor.
It was only now that I noticed I had spent that entire time staring at the dark haired girl, not even thinking enough to help her move the heavy object. Before she opened it, Jade walked around the object and sat on it, looking at me face to face. Even though she was smiling, I could tell that she had something on her mind.
"What's the matter?" I asked, getting somewhat concerned over her shift in emotions.
She cleared her throat before talking, "I enjoyed last night, it was amazing just to relax and be myself around someone. I am more than happy to take everything slow, as I understand we are both experiencing this for the first time together; but I have to let you know something… something that has caused me some break ups in the past, so… I would prefer to let you know now, rather than tell you later down the road when we are both more invested in each other"
I was starting to get nervous, I didn't think there was anything about Jade that I would have hated and definitely nothing that would cause us to break up with each other.
"What's the matter?" I asked her as I placed my hands in hers, I just wanted skin to skin contact at that moment.
"I…" She seemed like she wanted to say something but it had difficulty coming out, "Do… Do you remember what I said a while ago? I told you why I came here, that I relished the idea of being in charge of women who were bound in latex?"
"Yeah, of course I do"
"That I had a dominant side to myself and this was kind of an outlet for my… desires? For a lack of a better word."
"Yeah, yeah."
"I wasn't lying when I told you about that." She couldn't even look me properly in the eye when she was talking about the subject, "I really do have a dominant side and it's a side of me that I cannot hide, I want to explore it with any sexual relationship I will have with someone."
"I don't think I have an issue with that, why did it cause you problems before?"
"Because the last few people I dated could not take it… Heather, I do not want to lose you, you are easily the best thing that has happened to me since I started here, but you have to understand that if you get into a relationship with me, I want to always be in control. Just ask my stupid brother, the amount of guys that he had seen running out of the house once they found out my secret."
"I'm fine with that."
"Are you sure? I've always thought you were a pretty dominant person yourself, even if you do spend your days as a ponygirl and I do not want our personalities to clash. I'm not saying that I would be the dominant straight away, but I will want to take the reins shortly after we start dating and I would want you to be very submissive to me."
A grin flashed across my face, "How submissive are you talking?"
"Very. Heather… I'm a sadist… there is no other way to say it."
"Oh…"
"Yeah, I completely understand if you want to walk away, I would if I was in your shoes."
My grin faded but a soft smile remained in its place, "Jade?"
"Yeah?"
"I'm still here."
"It doesn't worry you at all?" She looked genuinely scared that she was going to lose me in this conversation, but she had to get her true self out.
"It's going to take a moment or two to get used to, but I'm happy to go ahead."
She looked completely relieved, "Oh, thank you so much, Heather. That means so much to me."
"It's no problem at all" I said before the room went silent, as if both of us were individually digesting the information about each other, I was processing the thought about Jade being an extremely dominant person and she was getting to terms with the fact that I still wanted to be with her, "So… a sadist, huh?"
"Yeah."
"So… that's like whips and chains and stuff like that."
"No, it doesn't have to be."
"You don't have whips or chains?"
Jade clicked her tongue, as if she was trying to keep a straight face despite my questions, "Yes, I have whips and yes, I have chains. However, it's not always about that-"
"Jade! I'm only fucking with you."
She was silent for a moment before speaking, "Okay."
"I'm fine with it… I'm actually happy to explore it. Let's just try dating first, we only got together last night and shouldn't get too far ahead of ourselves."
"Okay, I am happy with that."
"Thank you."
Jade finally got off the box and opened it up, showing off the silver suit that laid inside, the outfit that I had seen pretty much everyday since I came here.
"Well… get naked then," she commanded with a wink.